Building a Relationship With God.

Seems appropriate to now focus on building this relationship that I’ve mentioned in the last blog.  You know, the one where you’ve just known of God long enough that it’s time to take it to the next level as they say in a relationship!

So let talk about how I fell in Love with my Hero Jesus, this is the only way I can help is by sharing my personal experience. You see we all have our own story as they say, and I won’t get into my long testimony, but just the beginning and how I started, maybe this will help you to assess if you stop your relationship early on.

Because I’ve known of God my whole life, as long as I can remember I went to church since I was a little girl. But I had no idea I was suppose to have a personal relationship with God’s son Jesus. I figured like most, I go to church, I’m pretty good persons, I’ve never purposing hurt anyone. Sooo the story begins. 

I never realized that I could or was even invited to know God personally or His Son Jesus. I heard stories, and seen pictures, and it all was nice! Christmas was always special because of  Baby Jesus. I never really imagined him bigger than a baby.. 

So after I ran my own life and basically turned into a very self center drug addict and traveled across country several times, getting into more drugs and legal troubles. I found myself with a great friend who I married and we got more into the night life and party scene. Only to come to a screeching halt when my husband at the time had emergency open heart surgery and then within the year went totally blind. Yes, you might say that was when I took a very serious look at where my help would need to come from, something bigger than me that could help with this situation, you see not only did I now have an addiction, a blind husband but I also had two young son’s 4 yrs old an 2 yrs old depending on me.  You see, I lived for at least a decade of what I know call insanity. I was on my knees now!

But God was so patient and heard my cry, I needed not only help with my personal addiction, but I needed miracle for Jim. I passionately pursued Jesus, I was scared and full of pride. It’s strange to think I still kinda thought I could figure things out except for Jim’s health. I can remember watching God move us from one low place to another, until I surrendered totally. When I gave up, I gave up everything.. I wanted to know exactly how I could live differently even maybe like Christ and how I wasn’t sure in the beginning.

I read 1 John where he talks about God is LIGHT in Him there is no darkness, I started asking God to show me how to live differently. I would pray for what to wear,  how to talk, you see I had inappropriate clothes and a sailor mouth. I read in the Bible Ephesians, James. 1, 2nd 3rd John. You might say this is where I started.

1 John 1:5-7 God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

I really wanted to live in the Truth. I didn’t want to go back to the way I was or even as a child not really know God. I watched God do miracles with my own eyes, I seen my exact pray be answered. I fell in love and wanted to know this Jesus more, and more.

I pursued Him, after he had already pursued me. Read 1 John it talks about the love God has for us and I needed to know this Love, because I was full of shame and guilt.

When you truly build this relationship on a daily bases, the guilt and shame falls off, the unhealthy lifestyle changes.  And you learn to hear God voice for yourself. I truly believe because I prayed (talked to God about everything) I learned what his voice sounded like to me. As you interact with God, His Son and the Holy Spirit you will learn to hear his voice. I comes to everyone in a special unique way. He know best, for some the hear in their heart, some hear thru dreams, some hear thru personal word spoken to them thru the word of God or others sharing. I believe God will speak to each on of us if we desire to hear.  You also just like myself  learned that I didn’t have to only call on him in crisis situations. I could talk to him about everything. 

 I found this love letter,  I wrote  one year into my relationship with Jesus.

I want to end this blog with it. To hopefully encourage you into this kind of relationship with the Father and His Son Jesus my personal Hero.  

We don’t want to be like the 5 virgins with their lamp stand empty, and they were not ready, they had some oil (which I believe represents the Holy Spirit) which means they didn’t build a relationship to sustain thru the waiting. Remember we don’t know exactly when he’s coming.  He did tell us to pay attention to the season’s not necessarily the 4 seasons, but what’s going on in the world. Luke 21:25-27  

Our King, our Bridegroom is comes. Matthew 25:1-13 The Parable of the Ten Virgins

Remember we could never earn his Love, it’s a Free Gift waiting for you to come and settle in, and desire to know the one who created you and me. The one who gave up everything for US.

2 Corinthians  5:17
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

It’s worth ever challenge, and sacrifice you may need to surrender!

                                       “YOUR LOVE IS REAL” 

                                                 Written 7/24/1988

As I sit and wonder, all the beauty that surrounds my spirit. Love is all that can be seen. For you have come to me in a dream, touched my heart with your tender hands of love. An as you carve my heart  with such awesome love so gentle your touch is.

As you build my New Life, with such a new character. More hope than I could have ever known. That you have such plans for my Life. Wow

Patiently you’ve been waiting there… with-in. Now that I can truly see & know  your love. Its been here all along, waiting just for me.

I know now your loves is in me, and it’ so real. I’ve open my heart to you, so that you may live and I may die to sin.

So that I may live again, just as you, with your character and together shine your light of life for those who seek to find you. 

That we may Praise your Name Dear Jesus you’re our greatest Love of All, YOU, who shall come and lead us home as one.  Sys                          

 (I was age 29 when I wrote this, I Accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior at age 28)

                                                            Love in Christ Always,

                                                            Daughter of the King, Sophia